'Friend'

Last week a friend of mine gave me a letter, a letter describing her honesty and what she really thought about me and our friendship. the point of giving the letter was in her words, ''You have to let your loved ones and your friends know how much they mean to you when they are near you because when they are dead no matter how much you cry or scream, they won't hear you''. It got me thinking, am I always expressing my true feelings about others? am I letting the people I care about know how much I love them, well the answer was obviously 'NO'. So I am writing this small note to that friend of mine who made me realize something very important and valuable.


Dear Tharini,

The letter you gave was indeed something special. Thank you for making me feel loved, what can I say I am flattered and mostly honored. As a tribute to your honesty I am going to be totally honest in my letter. I really had no idea that you considered me to be a special friend of yours and you thought about me as a very nice person. You have always been a very good friend to me and you are one of the few people for whom I have opened my self to. Most of the friends I met were associating me to use me or because they needed someone to pass their time and be acquainted with. I don't have to be pretentious when I am with you guys and I love that. I have very few true friends and you are one of them. You are always very polite and kind to everyone, for an instance when we bug Ms. T and Ms. P(you know who :P) you always defend them and that is super nice and kind. You don't blame people in public or at least I have never seen you blaming anyone in public :P. Don't ever think that you hair is ugly because you look really pretty when you wear it like a half pony tail(that is what you call it right? hehe). Plus my mom says that you are the PRETTIEST girl in our lane :D. 
I may not say this all the time but you people mean a lot to me and I love u guys a lot. Remember how we talked about going shopping and going to all the restaurants when we are doing jobs and earning, w should really do that. We could also get drunk occasionally but since you are a non smoker and a non drinker I'll do that with Nadee Akki, LOL :P. We may go in different paths and be in different places in the future but you know what we should always keep in touch because I don't want to lose great friends like you. If you ever need a helping hand or a friend to talk to, you can always count on me. So what I am saying is I love you a lot and you mean a lot to me. Tharini Wijeyasiriwardena, you have my honor and respect.
I wish you all the success, may all the good blessings be with you and may you live a long, healthy and a happy life.

Take Care

   

Courage and Honour............ (Quoting Michael Oher from ‘The Blind Side’)

Read this and think twice.

Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or a mistake, but you are not supposed to question adults or your coach or your teacher because they make the rules. May be they know the best, but may be they don’t. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn’t at least one of the 600 guys think of giving up and joining the other side? (Reference to the poem ‘The Charge of the Light Brigade’ by Lord Tennyson). I mean, valley of death, that’s pretty salty stuff. That’s why courage is tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you are doing something. I mean any fool can have courage, but honour, that’s the real reason you either do something or you don’t. It is who you are and may be who you want to be. If you die trying for something important then you have both honour and courage, and that’s pretty good. I think that is what the writer was saying (Reference to ‘The Charge of the Light Brigade’), that you should hope for courage and try for honour and may be even pray that the people telling you what to do have some too.

Where has all the Beauty Gone?

I used to live in a village; a small village,

Not far from the city.

There lived children of my age,

In this village bound to nature.

We wandered through the paddy fields,

Listening to the music of the wind,

Singing along with the birds,

Wondering how lucky we are to live in a village of this kind.

We played in the woods hunting for treasures,

And chased the birds pretending we are hunters,

I still remember the small flowers,

Waited to greet us as they danced to the breeze.

I thought this beauty would forever last,

For I was a little girl and unable to understand,

But I was wrong and urbanization was fast,

All the paddy fields, all the beauty; alas was lost in a glance.

Nothing could stop the force for it was strong,

When our elders welcomed it, we knew something was wrong,

Yet no one believed us for we were considered small,

Decisions were taken by those ho were tall.

I no longer know where I live,

For this place isn’t anymore the peaceful village,

But, now in my youth I am able to understand,

That urbanization was the force and it was man with it who destroyed everything.

With me now are only the beautiful memories of my childhood,

In my mind like a beautiful picture,

Nevertheless, some times when I walk on the dusty roads,

I still wonder where has all the beauty gone…

Disappointment

 
Enthusiastic I was when I first applied,

I thought it was supposed to be glorious and pride,

How happy I was because I thought I made the right decision,

I thought I'll be good and work to the perfection.

It took me a while to understand the reality,

That, behind the glory there was responsibility,

I was no more the independent person I used to be,

I was trapped in a frame of discipline, responsibilities which I was unable to be free.

I was lost and depressed for I was clueless,

I went to my parents who thought all this was hopeless,

I got scolded from everyone who said that I was useless,

But was only I who knew that my effort was flawless.

I was really sad for I knew that I failed,

I was disappointed for I knew that it was my fault,

For some time the sadness I was unable to bare,

Then I got fed up and after that I didn't care.

Now among the others I am considered as a failure,

They sometimes hint at me saying that I am useless,

To all of them I say that I don't care,

But deep inside the disappointment is hard to bare.